LOSING THE GENETIC LOTTERY

Now here’s something to think about: chances are you and I aren’t ever going to be one of the greats, one of those all-star types, one of those legends. Make-your-mama proud type of guys. Never. It feels like a dagger to the heart, I know. “Never.” It hurts. But listen: don’t let that discourage you. […]

THE LOTTERY LOSER

I once bought a lottery as a threat towards God. “God!” I said. “Listen to me! Either this is the winning ticket, or I’ll kill myself. I swear I will. I swear it! Either you make me the winner, or I’ll kill myself!” And I was serious, too.      Well God called my bluff. When the […]

AISLE 6

This happened at the grocery store:      I was inches away from the bag of oats when a woman rushed towards me, shrieks and arms flailing. “It’s you!” she screeched. “Oh thank you! Thank you for the other day! Thank you!”      It took me a moment to recognize her. But only a moment.      Just the other […]

SPIRITUAL DESPAIR OVER INFINITE, INDEFINITE SPACE

“Either I solve the riddle of life, or I stay here–stuck–and die. Because without solving that riddle–and solving it right now!–I can’t take another step. I have nothing to walk on. No road to begin my journey. I must solve the destination of my life so I can begin to move towards it. I know […]

SOMETHING A GIRL ONCE TOLD ME ABOUT THE JUDGING GOD

‘I was told once what makes Judgment so dreadful is the terrible silence. That it’s a giant cavern with you right in the middle. And you know God is somewhere watching. He’s somewhere in the dark. Perhaps he is the dark. Who knows? ‘He’s silent. In whatever corner he hides, he’s silent. Never says a […]

A PERSONALIZED CURSE FOR EVERY ONE OF US

I imagine every man has his own specific curse–that one thing that he alone would consider the very worst thing in the world. And since there are so many men with so many personalities, I imagine there are many “curses” I would only be too happy to accept. I’m often in need of a fairy, […]

THE FISH

Chinese people don’t give a damn about animals. Go ahead, feel smug. You care about animals, right? Precious, cute little things. Big eyes and a little nose! Well stop that dimple. Pack away that fifty-mile smile. Fold it up and pocket it. Because no one in the world gives a damn about fish. No one. […]

5. I HOPE TO COMBOBULATE IN CHINA

What a nightmare! What a horrible, horrible nightmare! It was so exasperating, I can’t even… …but I will. It’ll exacerbate my nervous state of mind to describe it, but so be it. To hell with my nervous state of mind. It’s a jar of roaches, but I’ll shake it all up. And just to make […]